Novel Bin Chapter 108 - The Last Loss
AN: the following content might (probably will) be sensitive to most readers. Don\'t read unless 18+ of age, and with a strong heart. You\'ve been warned! (Short chapter so you won\'t miss much if you skip)
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* Porter Robinson - Goodbye To A World *
Warm water droplets dripped down Lizzie\'s short locks as she sat in her filled bathtub, hugging her knees, with her mouth touching the water.
Her eyes were still warm and reddish from the tears she had shed. "Now I am truly alone..." the sadness in her voice echoed throughout the bathroom.
"I\'ve suffered enough, Sammy," she said quietly, "don\'t you think?"
*sigh*
"I know that I have promised you that I\'d live a happy life and always remember you, but- but I can\'t... Sammy," she said in between renewed sobs. "I\'m just not strong enough, I need someone to hold my hand and guide me, do you hear me?" her voice was slowly rising as she had had it with misery and the suffering she had to endure.
"I\'M NOT YOU SAMMY!" She yelled seconds before she started sobbing again.
"I- *sniff* I am not strong enough to live anymore... I can\'t take it. Why do people always leave me? Why do I have to endure this suffering on my own?" Tired as she was, her voice went faint again.
"Why must life be this cruel?" she said quietly which sounded more like a whisper lost in the wind.
"Will you forgive me Sammy?" she muttered while looking at the shiny, yet sharp, object next to her. "Will you forgive me if I sacrifice my future to come and see you again?"
"I have tried and you know it... the world knows it... I\'ve tried, but I can\'t stand it anymore," she said as she held the small razor blade in her hand.
"I\'m not even shaking anymore..." she said out loud remembering the first weeks of her brother\'s passing. She had tried to take her own life back then too, but she was too scared.
Unlike back then, now her hands seemed more determined and less fearful.
*sigh*
"I guess that even my body had it with this cruelty we call life...
"Farewell, stupid world...
"Open your arms Sammy, and you too stupid Liam..." she muttered while gripping the blade harder and closer to her artery. Without feeling it herself, her hand started to shake uncontrollably. "Here I com-SSSSS"
PAIN PAIN PAIN PAIN PAIN
Feeling the pain clouding her mind made her smile bitterly while thinking of Sammy and Liam.
Through the pain, she could hear her own screams even though she wasn\'t aware that she was screaming.
She felt ice cold all of a sudden as blood left her body. Then warm as her own warm blood touched her skin and dyed the water red all around her.
The pain didn\'t last long however as her consciousness started to drift away... from pain to nothingness, that was what she felt...
Slowly, lights seemed to fade away leaving nothing but an empty void...
The pain and suffering seemed to disappear....